It's Complicated


Life is indeed a cycle.Once you've became very happy,eventually you'll become the saddest person afterwards.If you can't be that one,then you'll be the other thing instead.Sometimes we can ask,can I have what I want?
I never expected that we will end like this.The reason might be that heavy that I've already learned how to let go,still it damn hurts.It's not the love that has been gone,but it's the trust that has been broken.It's not that the memories are bad,but it's just too good for me to forget.It does not literarily means to forget the past,but to accept that it will now become a beautiful part of that past.It doesn't mean to forget him,but it's how to learn the art of letting go.
Holding on to someone knowing that he can never be totally yours is just letting yourself killed unintentionally.It's never easy to turn your back to someone you have been dreaming to spend your entire life with.But if that happiness gives an enormous pain in return,live it.It may be hard at first,but as time goes you'll know that you have made the right thing.
Giving your all doesn't mean you will die if you'll broke up.It only proves that you are a good person and it's already up to him to give the same.Your instinct will tell you when to go on,and when to stop.Pretending that you are still okay has never been an option to have a good relationship.Being blind is not a characteristic of love which is given by God.It sees but doesn't mind.Hence,we are just fooling ourselves.There's no one else who will be experiencing the ultimate consequence but still ourselves.Despite of the fact that we know this realization ,we always tend to prove that it is wrong until we experience it and say "i knew it that this will happen".
Blaming ourselves will come right after that,and wished we have took the other road behind.And the truth is here,nothing you can do about it,but just to cry out loud and hope that the pain won't last long.Not longer before you will give up.It's just like that,you just have to get up each time you fall.And life will reward you with someone better who will handle your heart as if it is his.TC ney.......

It's For You

Everyone of us dreams of a happy ending in our different unique stories.I also have my own,and I know you also have.It is just we do not know how will it flow and end as we all have want it to be.The funny thing about it is characters are keep on twisting their roles.Know what I mean?yeah I know you do.It is just hard to accept that the person you have always been giving your full trust will be just the one who will pull you down and crush you into million pieces.And yet,you still forgive that person with all those little pieces left.How are we so dumb-founded by those sad realities indeed.Eventually,we are starting to hate ourselves and and the way we think.Ooh,such an awful agony you'll be experiencing...But you should think that its not that bad after all. They are still your old friends to whom you have spent many years together, even in some ways they have caused you a terrible pain in which you think you can't bear anymore.I'll never barter that friendship into a cheap issue I know I can overcome with.I may not give my forgiveness now,but I know someday I can.The only permanent thing in this world is change which only tells me that this pain I'm experiencing now will just vanish and it will let me start all over again.The trust may never be regained, but the memories of that trust I have given will always be kept.

Can't Understand Either


Life can be so tough and it can be a complete picture of the other thing around.Of course,we always think that it is always unfair,right?Like me,I've always wanted everything to be on my own way and in such a convenient one.But unfortunately,things just got their own way of showing theirselves which are really unfavorable for me,I guess.Just what Hagrid,a famous character in Harry Potter series,"What's coming will come,and we will meet them when it does".In my everyday life,I've been searching those answers that bugged me every now and then,which I think can satisfy me to end my agony.Why do things go on that way,what if I've done that.....oohhh,it just can't get passed through my brain.But well, I can't do anything about it unless I will take into account what Dumbledore said "Understanding is the first step to acceptance,and only with acceptance can there be recovery".Which I think have its weight.