T muh!

Damu-damu nagid sang natabu sa to pang paglakat muh. Kun indi ko malipat, puro lng gid to kasubu and nabatyagan ko. T, indi ko man mapunggan mung. Kairinit gni. ambot ah.

Krun nga lapit kana pgpuli, daw gina kulbaan ko. Kay kun paminsarun ko gid ang mga nabatyagan ko, daw madula na bala haw. Ambot ah, bsi krun lng ni. bsi mbalik lng ang balatyagun ko sa imu,

Amu gid na sa guru. Kun mamangkut sa akun, ang isaot ko lng. "t muh".

Allopatrically Isolated


it was last month, no last 2 months that I have left home to have my senior year continued...gush.. I felt terribly alone. Specially that kuya also left. I missed everyone. My family and my home. My own bed, and my own room.

Gush how I miss this place.


Catching with time for love and education...

I still have few hours


It was June 9. Still fresh in my mind and always will be.

He left. I seldom found myself crying for someone I know that will still come back. But still, I cried. Harder and harder.

I forced my swelling eyes to open. It’s already morning. Moments from now, he’s gonna be on board. On board on a ship that will take him away from me. “6 months is just too short, we can make it” I remembered him say last night. “Of course we can” I immediately replied. But those words made a deep cut into my heart. I almost cried.

That night was a mixture of fear and sadness. Great sadness. We’re always together for the last several months. Walking in streets looking for centavos, keeping our hands tight looking for a place to eat, and just wandering around to where our feet would take us.

Cracking jokes, best laughs, best food, best moments, and being with him. With him. Everything worked out. I missed him. I really miss him this much.

Those few hours were being treasured today, and everyday of my life. Now, I’m learning to adjust and working hard just to accept that I am bound to like the word I hate the most. Waiting.

Being bitter


People passes our lives, it may be for the purpose of just knowing you..or maybe in some instances, they became a special someone or an unforgettable enemy.

Like just other people’s lives, I had my own version of a “kontrabida” and a super exceptional personality of a person I met.He is indeed unique. Unique of being a story maker and a total idiot. I have a feeling of pity for him. He do not know what he is doing, and maybe, God forbid, he may end up floating in Banica river with his 100% useless attitude, trash life and a super stupid kind of character.

I never judged a person immediately. But this time, I know I am right. I have proven it many times and this one I know he don’t know himself. Pity for him, pity for him.

He longed for everything and he can’t have it. The understanding, love and passion of being on the center stage is all that he wants.

I thought that he was just an ordinary person you can encounter on streets, school and in an ordinary life of yours. He is not that type. He loves to make controversies, and to see other people’s lives shatter is his sort of entertainment.

I became bitter towards him. Because of him.

Now I’m facing stories of my life which were not true. Of course made by him.I wonder if he has a personality disorder or just maybe, a defective genes or mutation became the cause of his misbehavior. I tried to understand, but I can’t. Instead I became so bitter that I can cut him into pieces for doing that to me. Being bitter, totally… totally. He made a big mistake and I will make sure that I have my last laugh on this. Every game is about winning. Every problem is a victory. And those that will hinder it will suffer.

Learning how to Speak for Myself


Maybe I can consider this as another lesson I've learned as a college student, "No matter how deep is your friendship, there will always a time that you will be considered as a competitor (real one) and selfisness will arise".

So what if I'm really affected? It's just I'm so surprised the way she treated us. To think that there are only three of us in our batch, she never hesitated and even just to think twice before uttering words that can greatly hurt our feelings. She's the most numb person I have ever met. She has her own world and don't consider us if what would be our reactions upon her actions and most especially her attitude as a whole.

She's never like this before. For almost three years of being together, I have reached the capacity of my patience and I just blowed my heart out and letting these revealations come out from where it was hidden for years. Me and my ever "walang ingay" batchmate never attempted to express what we really feel towards our " feeling great" batchmate hoping that she will change and all that. Unfortunately, she didn't, she even got worse that's why I have blown off.....Waaaaappppaaaaakkk!!!!

To start it off, let me just begin with her ever rightious self and her attitude of being always having the right answer, the right ideas, the right decisions and all the right things was owned by her. We really don't know what's up to her why she's not ashamed or even just a little humble of whatever knowledge she may have knowing that not all of what she knows was true. In relation to this, she never hesitates to tell somebody "TO USE YOUR BRAIN EVEN JUST FOR NOW!" just to satisfy herself that she have already done enough.

This problem of her personality even got worse, as what I have mentioned, up to the point of lying in front of or faces! Her selfisness and her personal interests maybe eaten her up which pushed her to convince us with her very inconvincible face that she has the very controversial whatsoever. She even hesitated to tell the truth and continue with her little lying drama. I was not totally after of that, all I can't accept is that she made us all "tanga" as if we are. As if she can fool us with her little lies. I can't beleive she can do that to us. My trust has never been this broken ever and the respect I have given her totally fade away.

I'm not into friendship now if it only means I would not be my true self to her. It's better this way, keeping a distance from the person I can't get along with anymore than to make the problem bigger. Standing up for yourself sometimes can give a big relief from what you really feel inside and to make the other person realize what she have done "ky basin manhid na siya kaayo, or nagpakamanhid rah" that can even make her interpret that we are just okay to whatever she may say. "Mangabusar na laman sige".

So that was it, I just didn't include all of the other issues for I may just get even more mad at her.