Maybe I can consider this as another lesson I've learned as a college student, "No matter how deep is your friendship, there will always a time that you will be considered as a competitor (real one) and selfisness will arise".
So what if I'm really affected? It's just I'm so surprised the way she treated us. To think that there are only three of us in our batch, she never hesitated and even just to think twice before uttering words that can greatly hurt our feelings. She's the most numb person I have ever met. She has her own world and don't consider us if what would be our reactions upon her actions and most especially her attitude as a whole.
She's never like this before. For almost three years of being together, I have reached the capacity of my patience and I just blowed my heart out and letting these revealations come out from where it was hidden for years. Me and my ever "walang ingay" batchmate never attempted to express what we really feel towards our " feeling great" batchmate hoping that she will change and all that. Unfortunately, she didn't, she even got worse that's why I have blown off.....Waaaaappppaaaaakkk!!!!
To start it off, let me just begin with her ever rightious self and her attitude of being always having the right answer, the right ideas, the right decisions and all the right things was owned by her. We really don't know what's up to her why she's not ashamed or even just a little humble of whatever knowledge she may have knowing that not all of what she knows was true. In relation to this, she never hesitates to tell somebody "TO USE YOUR BRAIN EVEN JUST FOR NOW!" just to satisfy herself that she have already done enough.
This problem of her personality even got worse, as what I have mentioned, up to the point of lying in front of or faces! Her selfisness and her personal interests maybe eaten her up which pushed her to convince us with her very inconvincible face that she has the very controversial whatsoever. She even hesitated to tell the truth and continue with her little lying drama. I was not totally after of that, all I can't accept is that she made us all "tanga" as if we are. As if she can fool us with her little lies. I can't beleive she can do that to us. My trust has never been this broken ever and the respect I have given her totally fade away.
I'm not into friendship now if it only means I would not be my true self to her. It's better this way, keeping a distance from the person I can't get along with anymore than to make the problem bigger. Standing up for yourself sometimes can give a big relief from what you really feel inside and to make the other person realize what she have done "ky basin manhid na siya kaayo, or nagpakamanhid rah" that can even make her interpret that we are just okay to whatever she may say. "Mangabusar na laman sige".
So that was it, I just didn't include all of the other issues for I may just get even more mad at her.
