How?

"One last cry,one last cry.Before I leave it all behind."Goes a part of the lyrics of a familiar song.I guess that's it.I have to give my one last cry and put him out of my mind...but never in my heart.'Cause no matter what I do, there's still that connection between us that we cannot run nor hide.
Every sunrise that happens everyday gives me a very tiny hope that I can still be what I am before he came and influence every inch of me.It's a great battle I fought which really crushed my entire life.Never in my scariest dreams that this thing will happen.The truth always hunts me at night and kills me slowly.
I would like to start from the very beginning.When I am still alive.Not like this,a lifeless creature.I should be strong I know.But every piece of me aches in severe pain.The reality is here.I should accept that his existence makes my world miserable, and I must leave and rest for myself. The sad thing is, he is my world. How can i leave it?

I got a little upset today...I cried a lot.....

As of Now......

Things have really change and I like it a bit....My busy schedule is quite helpful indeed.I want things to be just this way I guess....But sometimes I can't help it,I just sit down in a corner and cry.Thinking of the little things I got behind me and just stare at nowhere for quite sometime.I've been so alone for about a month now and I'm starting to like it.I don't know.Maybe I just need a break.....

Coping...

It all started with a simple text message and ended with an awful crap.I do not usually regret with the things that made me happy in the past but with this fact which happened to me,I eventually did...

I'll Stay

I know this will be the hardest thing for me to forget and to go on on my journey.It's been weeks already.I really miss that someone.Someone who I can really call mine but I just neglected.And now,I know that no matter what I do,I can never have him back again.And no matter how I cry,it's too late already.Until now,I'll still exchange the whole world just to feel his existence,to feel his every breath,and to feel his every longing.I missed him a lot.But I know he can never be mine again.This has been the greatest mistake I've ever done.
I know life will never be the same again.This feeling inside me is killing ever inch of my soul.The path I'm taking right now is too tough for me to handle.We've have ended in such a way I never expected and it's torturing my young mind.He's too close and yet I cannot reach him.I want to be whole again...I cannot bare the pain I'm having right now.Things are too complicated and I cannot let go.Pieces of me are scattered,I can't find any of them.I want to be back to someone's side who can make me whole again.He have taken a the large part of me which I cannot have it back.I'm miserable.Totally crushed and broken.WE SAID LET GO,BUT I KEEP ON HANGING ON.INSIDE I KNOW IT'S OVER,YOU'RE REALLY GONE...BUT STILL,ILL STAY IN LOVE WITH YOU.....

My Debut Plans

Hi guyz!!! I already have my motif for my debut this coming july 11.......i decided that it will be an all-white party just like what we have on our acquaintance in CAS department last year.Unfortunately,I still don't have my final list on my 18 roses and candles.I'm pretty much excited about the fact in which to whom I'll be sharing my last dance on that night.Of course, I already have my clue but still everything can still change since I still have two more months to finalize everything.I am also nervous 'cause there are still a lot of things to prepare aside from the food or course. I decided to have Butterflies as my give aways and as for the invitation,I still don't have the layout.I am going to ask help from my friends about it and for that particular staff who will cover the whole event for me.I'm open for suggestions guyz....

Sizzling Summer

Wheew,its been terribly hot this passed few weeks.I'm so busy due to the summer league I've been facilitating.We started it last Sunday and it's been going quite fine.i don't still have the cash prizes though,hehehe....Being a SK chairman in our place is an enjoyable job, yet it can get you totally tired after a day of work.Its never easy in my part since I'm still a student and of course a minor.A lot of decision making will come across your way and they are really knocks your head off.But anyway,the position really helped me in my financial needs and it made me a stronger person indeed.I know God will help me.......Good day guyz.......