From the Place That I Have Been Hiding...

I can't believe how time flies and finally this day had finally come! Ahmm, I have these mixed emotions that I have to write all of these down.

So, it's my last day now as an SK chairwoman of Poblacion, Mabinay. It brings me happiness, of course sadness...and maybe a feeling of great relief from all the responsibilities I have to face as a leader (knowing that I am also a college student on a faraway university and a writer as well).

The three years of being on the position has been a tough and a very rocky ride. At the age of 16, I became a politician outside the school and forced myself to be mature enough for the sake of doing all the new challenges that awaits me. I never knew that it would be that hard for me. Things leveled up to a hieght that I can't even reach at all. Sometimes, things are too stirred up and I can't fixed them anymore. There are also times that I felt so alone, no one's left to help me carry the heavy burden and continue the hardest journey I ever had.

Great mistakes were all part of the journey. The things I never really thought happened to me and I just thank God that despite with all of these, I was able to stand up and never gave up. I have so many plans that were left only on printed papers and never had a chance to realize it. In some point of my life, I have this major grudge on my fellow officers. Some never really care, and some are considered by me as hindrances on my projects (let just say they really are). Criticisms were never out with all of these. People are so judgmental (specially in our place) up to the point of tearing you apart. I have shed a lot of tears since from my very first year up to now. The sad part of this is, those people mentioned are the ones who have their college degrees and they so believe on thereselves that they are so upright! (which they are not, mga great pretenders!). I just so hate this people, and someday I'll gonna prove something that will leave an enormous slap on their faces! Weeew!!, the was a great relief.

To go on....Little by little, I learned how to love the position. Instead of hating myself of being there, I learned how to adjust and embraced the office I have acquired. The experience taught me a lot. How to make "deadma" on issues, to socialize with all the prominent persons in the community, learned how to communicate efficiently with a total stranger during seminars, and of course to value my own money. These lessons in life made a stronger person. It made me dream of something bigger for myself and I have to reach it.

All in all, I have these positive and negative effects in my life as a result of being a politician in such a young age. I am into leadership, but maybe not into politics. I never close my doors for opportunities but I have this desire to finish my studies with flying colors. Being on a higher rank is good, receiving benefits is very good, but I beleive that I have to really work for it. Not like this. Not like, pretending that you are worth for what you receive.For now, I think I have to bid goodbye on the work that I have learned to live with. Saying googbye always hurts, but when it brings sorrow more that happiness, it's worth leaving it after all.

Candidates of todays' elections, whoever will takeover my chair, it's your time now. It may be just a small part of the political industry, but never ever forget that everything starts from this level. A lot of things awaits. Be ready.

And all of these came from the place that I have been hiding for the last three years...