I got a little upset today...I cried a lot.....

As of Now......

Things have really change and I like it a bit....My busy schedule is quite helpful indeed.I want things to be just this way I guess....But sometimes I can't help it,I just sit down in a corner and cry.Thinking of the little things I got behind me and just stare at nowhere for quite sometime.I've been so alone for about a month now and I'm starting to like it.I don't know.Maybe I just need a break.....

Coping...

It all started with a simple text message and ended with an awful crap.I do not usually regret with the things that made me happy in the past but with this fact which happened to me,I eventually did...

I'll Stay

I know this will be the hardest thing for me to forget and to go on on my journey.It's been weeks already.I really miss that someone.Someone who I can really call mine but I just neglected.And now,I know that no matter what I do,I can never have him back again.And no matter how I cry,it's too late already.Until now,I'll still exchange the whole world just to feel his existence,to feel his every breath,and to feel his every longing.I missed him a lot.But I know he can never be mine again.This has been the greatest mistake I've ever done.
I know life will never be the same again.This feeling inside me is killing ever inch of my soul.The path I'm taking right now is too tough for me to handle.We've have ended in such a way I never expected and it's torturing my young mind.He's too close and yet I cannot reach him.I want to be whole again...I cannot bare the pain I'm having right now.Things are too complicated and I cannot let go.Pieces of me are scattered,I can't find any of them.I want to be back to someone's side who can make me whole again.He have taken a the large part of me which I cannot have it back.I'm miserable.Totally crushed and broken.WE SAID LET GO,BUT I KEEP ON HANGING ON.INSIDE I KNOW IT'S OVER,YOU'RE REALLY GONE...BUT STILL,ILL STAY IN LOVE WITH YOU.....